Things That Stress Me Out

My mom tells me I stress too much, which I do. But I like to think of it as I am just very detail oriented, and not stressful. But heck, things that should not stress your everyday Gilbert resident really make me think I'm going to go gray pre maturely. I mean, I stress when I don't have anything to stress about. Also, I do not worry about things that actually matter- like around finals time I would get sick from stress but not the I-need-to-get-an-a kind of stress, the kind of stress like I need to find the perfect comfortable yet very stylish outfit combo to wear to take finals, also should I get my teachers presents, also what am I going to do about never seeing the boy I am positive is the love of my life in my English class yet I never spoke a word to?! Those are things that linger in my mind, along with a few more:

-is my future house going to have light wood, like bleached white almost, or dark wood floors?! Because light is so trendy and welcoming and just heavenly, while dark is classic and comfy. And although I am not planning on settling down and be picking out floors, anytime soon, it's good to be prepared. But along with pondering about floors you have cabinets. Do I want cute white cupboards with silver knobs, or a dark wash one with bronze?! Also, what if I meet a super hot surfer return missionary who also wants to live in Gilbert for forever and we just get eachother on that level, like I fill him up where he's missing and he fills me up where I'm missing and so we decide to elope to the Hawaii temple like next week (this surfer return missionary is also super rich from working for his dad or something I don't really know) but we come back from our honeymoon on the Greecian beaches and we buy a cute little cottage in Agritopia and I have to make a quick decision- light or dark floors. White or brown cupboards and cabinets. It's always better to be safe rather than sorry. 

-if I look at the guy running across the beach does that look like I'm checking him out?! Ok all of the signs point to it and as there is a good chance I am, I look at everyone who walks across the beach. Like I just like to take in their style and how they walk and come up with situations about their lifestyle and their families- so you see: while it looks like I am merely checking out the hot runner who's passing by I'm actually doing an im depth analysis. 

-do I tweet too much?! Ok yes in fact the signs all lead to I positively do, but actually I don't really stress about this I just wanted to add that I have so many funny thoughts (I think???) that pop into my head and sometimes I just can't wait to post them on my blog I just want to tweet them! Hear me tweet world! ;-)

-which Instagram picture? Literally yesterday, I sent 2 different set ups of the exact same picture with the same filter to probably 6 different pals and also consulted Tyson. I can't make a decision to save my life- and that stresses me like no other. Also stressed because I can't make a decision, and it just hits a downward spiral. Anyway, basically I finally decided upon a picture when Tyson said "it doesn't matter they're the same" when I realized no matter which one I pick, the few people who actually do see my picture will not see the rejected one so they have nothing to compare it to actually, so whichever picture anyone decides to post on Instagram is always the right one. 

-did that person think I was laughing at them?! Oh no they think I'm making fun of them. This is a constant fear because I laugh at everything- uncomfortable situations, scary movies, funny moments (obviously) and sometimes sad situations which sometimes I laugh in public because sometimes a funny text will pop up from Carson and I literally laugh out loud, and the random goer by next to me probably thinks I'm laughing at them. Then they feel bad, and I feel bad. Because I know what it's like to feel bad about yourself and that sucks. A lot. 

-should I have tinder?! I'm just kind of stressed because that whole tinder thing freaks me out. I've been single for about 98% of my life and I have 100% never downloaded tinder, ever. 

-should I take my break at work now or later? Because if I take it now the E bar will most definitely have zucchini bread, but if I take it later they might not have zucchini bread but if I take it later I will have less time until I get to leave after my break, which could make the day go by faster. 

-should I answer all the "who wants to hangout snapchats" literally everyone sends out daily. Because I wanna hangout!! But also they're mass snapchats, but also I'm bored so.

-do I fav or not fav the fmt tweet. This one is a stinker because it's a risk, you fav, wishing and waiting for the little stinker of a dm that (for me atleast) never usually comes. So normally I choose the do not fav, just kidding I always fav but I never get the dm so maybe if I say I never fav then I sound cooler, and I can hold onto more of my pride. 

Xoxo