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You know you're really having an off day when you are feeling kind of bummed and the thought of Ben and Jerry's doesn't even make you perk up. And yes, a jam sesh alone on the way home in the car did perk me up a bit, but still. I think that a nice hug would really cure my blues right now. I think we as humans should start using sounds to describe your mood, okay maybe I only think this because this is what I do, but today my pal Carson asked me how my day was and no words in my vocabulary could describe my mood. I wanted to just send a little voice message of a sound that is similar to "blah" to her to describe how I am feeling, but I settled with the word "hard." The thing is, I wish today was hard. I wish I could describe all of my many moods ;-) or emotions with words, simple words. Wouldn't that be nice?! And the worst part is, I don't even know why my mood is "blah," it just is. Maybe I should go see "Inside Out" because my mom says that movie teaches you lots about emotions, but today is Sunday and I also have an early workout in the morning. So that option, naturally, is out. So the real issue here is that Ben and Jerry's will not perk me up, a movie cannot, (which I am not too bummed about because I get bored in movies very fast), looking at pictures of fun memories will not perk me up because it makes me miss those times. I miss things bad, like memories and people and feelings. I miss home easily, I get homesick for consistency and the people of Gilbert. So good thing I am moving 9000 miles away in the fall right? Actually that thought makes me perk up, like a lot. I just sat up straighter and I am pretty sure that my room just got brighter.  Also Ben and Jerry's is sounding a lot better.