Apologies

I think an apology is due, to people that read my blog and think my posts are about them. Confession: the people that read my blog (my close friends, my mom and maybe a few others) are not people that I would ever write terrible things about. The people that I am subliminally writing bad things about are not people that read my blog, and if you are offended, no one is making you read this. But for reals, the people that piss me off the most do not know about this blog and would not be reading it. *Side note: I am not as much as a brat as I make myself out to be. I really care for people, I feel others emotions hard and I sympathize with people, but I also cope with humor. I used to let people walk all over me, I would let people easily slip in and out of my life when it was convenient for them. Now, as cheesy and cliche as this sounds, I have "Changed" -Obama '08. I am strong now, yes I let my emotions out and let everyone know what I am feeling but I do not let others walk across my heart and leave deep and bleeding cuts like I used to. I do not let words leave such a strong pain as they used to. I just am a little bit of a different and stronger person, and sometimes my humor comes off as hurtful and I really am sorry if I hurt feelings.

That was apology number one. Apology number two goes to my closest friends and confidantes, because they inspire most of the snarky comments I make on this emotional vomit home page. I really need to give more credit to them. And as I have mentioned before, best friends are important. Best friends are a different breed of people. Best friends are those people that are there for you, they're there for you when you want to gush about your first kiss, how sweet a boy is to you, how crappy a boy is to you, to listen how much it sucks to have divorced parents. Best friends come over late at night and listen to details of your first and greatest date, they cheer you on in your darkest moments, and they lift you higher in your greatest. Best friends cry with you after a breakup, they laugh with you after embarrassing moments and they tell you the truth about outfits. But having a best friend comes along with a lot of responsibility! You have to give a little to get a little. You have to let your friends help you, but you also have to be there for them. You have to be willing to bring them icecream at 1am, wipe their tears when boys change their mind and give hugs when words cannot do justice. I love my friends and I hope everyone-yes even those few I constantly blog about- have a true and everlasting best friend. So here is some credit to my closest confidantes, and the funny stuff they say that sparks my mind.

-"But you speaking to your ex is worse than listening about the gay sex in evit" -Shay
-"I just love when people tell me things about myself" -Amber
-*Posts selfie about how bad his hair looks* "So naturally you post a selfie because you think you're so ugly" -Carson
-"It must really suck to care what people think about you" -Bailee
"It's just sad you have to use a thesaurus to make your argument" -Shay
-"When you don't park in employee parking and you run into your manager in the parking lot" -Carson
-"You need to move to Provo so we can makeout with boys and never see them again" -Holly
-"Best friends are the kind of friends that they know so much about you that if you ever lost your friendship you would be screwed" -Amber
-"Tensions are hot at work today" -Carson
-"Hun, you are nothing but fat" -Paige
-"You should keep subtweeting" -Bailee

I just wanna say that good friends are cool things, and I am #blessed. Friends make everything bad in this world a lot less hard, and I promise that if you lean unto your friends and let them help you then you will be a happier and more pleasant you.