(Written on a plane, obviously not at this moment)
I would much rather be sleeping right now, except the girl sitting next to me on the plane insists on having her very bright reading light shining on her (the both of us,) we have a challenging relationship. I mean I'm sure she's a great gal and all, except technically she stole my window seat. My ticket explicitly states "12D" which, designated by the diagrams, is a window seat. But whatever, I'm 18 so I won't throw a fit. I thought about letting her know that she probably accidentally (most likely on purpose) sat in (stole) my window seat, but by the looks of that book she cherishes she doesn't speak much English, so I'm managing. Also, she keeps stealing the armrest we share. We both put our arms there and awkwardly felt our elbows blush and I retreated, so she's got the window seat and the light and the armrest, but I'm keeping my cool. She also likes to stretch her body out, so her feet are halfway between my feet space and hers, but I mean at least one of us is comfortable. But because I got the aisle seat I got my Oreos before she got her peanuts, score! Except I open my tray table and it is broken, window seat/arm rest/feet space stealing b-!-t-c-h: 1, me: -43
Anyway, because I am out of reading material I reach for the magazine so gracefully provided by the airline and fell upon a page recognizing "ms congeniality of Firefly airline," and I chuckled under my breath for 2 reasons: 1.) she's only been working here for roughly 10 months so she must be DOING something right if you catch my drift and 2.) I want to be recognized in a magazine :-( I can hear all of my fans now, okay okay I admit I have been featured in a magazine once. Mckenzie Yee of Gilbert, Arizona creative director of clearlykenzie was featured in Go Gilbert! Circa 2009 for their back to school issue, I got to wear True Religion jeans and I even wore the bedazzled old navy flip flops I had brought along with me. Other models were there too, a teenage boy with a surfer bleach blond Justin Bieber hair do and a stick thin, possibly starved, brown haired girl my age, both hired from a modeling agency. I was there with my little brother because my parents won a silent auction at my dads work function, they didn't provide snacks but it was still quite glamorous. Yes I was a model! Ok stop asking! You're embarrassing me!
Ms congeniality of Firefly airlines September 2015 issue's hobbies include "traveling, reading and cooking," oh wow she's diverse and probably well read.
I'm kind of starting to realize that not all things are as they seem. My modeling claim to fame was definitely not all of the glamour I was hoping, and I bet ms congeniality September 2015 would much rather sit down with some reruns of her favorite sitcom and some "fish balls" (a big hit in Asia, actually) than cook all day with the discovery channel in the background while her perfect little Asian babies read her favorite novel to her in one of their 7 languages they speak. Okay now I'm just being harsh.
In my resume I list some of my hobbies as "running, reading, writing," ok here's the sitch b!tch:
-I run, but I can barely make it a mile and a quarter without convincing myself my body is beautiful the way it is and I don't need to tighten my stomach to one day find a man. Then I convince myself I deserve 3 breakfasts and a day full of watching Greys Anatomy, but hey, at least I don't wear ballet flats with American Eagle jeans- or army pants.
-I read, I mean it took me a year to read the first Maze Runner book and I actually saw the first and second movie before I finished the book, but it's something. Also I am in the middle of Harry Potter book 5 and have been since July, so you can say I'm pretty well read. Also I have very dutifully read the spark notes of The Hobbit, Heart of Darkness and several other assigned readings. Sorry English teachers, you were still some of my favorite teachers.
-I write in my journal 3-4 times a week and I emotionally vent/write/vomit on my little blog of mine so basically I am a writer, I will be doing a book signing at Barnes and Nobles at Santan mall, dates coming soon.
The 3 hobbies included on my resume paint a completely different picture than the true human behind them. I'm not your average under achieving, happy go lucky 18 year old, no, I am much more than that! Some things just aren't as they seem. Some people, some intentions and some situations are just not as they seem. I have a hard time with this concept, I like things to be explicit so I see exactly what I am getting into without getting too emotionally invested. One time I let my guard down and jumped in, only to feel like I was getting fed to the sharks. But if I didn't jump in, if I didn't have that experience where I let something that wasn't as it seemed enter my life, I wouldn't be the same person I am today- making (attempting to) rude jokes about the girl sitting next to me on a plane. But for real, not everything is as it seems, but that doesn't mean it's not worth it. Life is scary, not everything comes with a clear coat where you can see what that package includes- the trials and happiness and experiences, but that's where we just have to trust that truly everything happens for a reason.
xoxo
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