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Mindy Kaling, I wish I was cool enough to have you as my spirit famous person. This is important!! This right here!! This quote!! It falls along the lines of "fake it 'til you make it," as much as I am a huge proponent for being genuine and real and acting according to your real feelings, sometimes in order to mend the inside we need to have a pretty and shiny outside. Kind of like how sometimes you have to let the hurt out before you can let the happy in. On days where literally the universe is barfing on me and I want to quit and hide underneath my covers and never see daylight again, this quote always pops up in my mind. When a girl says a nasty comment to me, when my car breaks down on the 101, when they boy who "loves" me kisses another girl, when I feel as though the whole world is waiting for me to mess up falling down the stairs with my skirt flying up style- I just gotta pull out good 'ol "sweetheart valentine" and apply it extra dark to leave my mark on the world. As if I am saying a big "SUCK IT" to the universe, that maybe I do not know what I am doing with my life, maybe I still feel gray, and maybe I find myself at the Krispey Kreme drive thru all too often, but I can make the outside look good. I can make the outside look hella good. So when your insides are mush and your heart is squashed, put on bright lipstick and do your hair how YOU like it and "pretend to be psyched," because one day the pain will numb. One day your heart will beat fast again for someone new, one day a best friend will surprise you with a diet coke, one day you will find a love that will be the perfect cliche kind of love- and one day you won't have to "pretend" to be psyched anymore, because you will be. Pinky promise.

xoxo