"He Is Very Dreamy"

"He is very dreamy, but he is not the sun. You are."

-Cristina Yang

Today I was calming down the temper tantrum of a very fiesty 8 year old and she seemed to calm down when I would start to tell a story. The story would end and she would again try to escape to run away and never come back! Ever! And then I started a long story, a long story where I let someone be the sun in my life, and I got burned. I love the look in her eyes when I told her about the butterflies I got, I crave the excitement I could see inside of her when I told her I remember what I wore when he kissed me for the first time, I feel the sadness of her face when I told her how my body was so sad and so broken for the first time.

There is no right way to have a relationship, no right way to get a boy to fall for you, and no right way to handle a break up. But if I could have one wish, I wish I would have told myself the words that Cristina told Meredith as she (I won't give the plot away too much).. as she went.. she said the words "He is very dreamy, but he is not the sun. You are." I love that. That like totally feeds my wounded soul! But seriously, that is a reminder that every girl who falls for a boy with dreamy eyes needs. It feels great to be so wrapped up in like that you can't see straight, but always remember that it is okay to put yourself first. It is okay to do something because you want to, it is okay to ditch him for the night to have a girls night with friends, not only because when things get bad your friends will be the ones there for you, but because that is what you want to do. It is so easy to get caught up in someone who you let be your sun, but don't let your own sun fade out too much.

xoxo