Humans Need More

So here's the thing, I just really believe that as humans we need more than the three basics to survive. Like ok we are not animals, we can not thrive with food, water and shelter. We have been blessed with bodies and minds and emotions, so much that we crave these things to survive. Now, somedays I am positive that I can survive on Krispey Kreme donuts, exhibit A:

But really, other things fill us up. I was thinking about this idea as I was enjoying my newly unemployed life where I was laying in the pool listening to "Rich Girl," and I felt as though I should be in a scene of Gossip Girl. As Jenny Han via Belly states "I could live on a crush for weeks," I completely agree. There are moments that I have stored in my brain that I use as a fall back when I am bored or sad or just lonely, they are like the granola bar that is always in your pantry that you can always count on and it will never let you down. 

Freshman year I was infatuated with a brunette boy whose eyes crinkled when he smiled and my heart melted faster than a popsicle in Arizona heat when he would open his heavenly lips and say "Hey McKenzie," I mean, there was a moment when he said hello to me after class and I LIVED on that moment for a few months. I told everyone and anyone who would listen that this beautiful human being knew my name, and whenever I was bummed or down with the blues I would remember his crinkled eyes and my heart would beat fast and I would be content. I lived on that crush for months, that crush was my stability basically. 

I was training myself to live on memories. I am stuck with that training today. Today, I remember the heart beating second of my first kiss and I fall back on that when I need a good laugh, I remember the laughs of sneaking into the Buttes hot tub with friends when I am bored, I remember my first real kiss with a boy I really liked when I want to remember the good. I am like Belly where I live on moments, I have little memories of my lifetime stored up so when I am sitting alone in the food court or driving the long drive home I can sip on those moments and feel what it was like when life felt as it was golden. 

I love memories, and it is hard to not plant down in memory lane and stay there because the past is much more comforting and safe than the present. But how lucky we are that we are blessed with a brain that can remember feelings and emotions and these are triggered by songs or words or a building on the road, I mean it sucks to feel so much, but also it is kind of awesome because that connects us with one another.

Also if there was an award for an all-over-the-place-what-is-the-point-blog-post I like to think that this one would take home the gold medal. I just think it is interesting that I can live on memories, that when it feels as though my life is at a humming plateau, I can look back on the exciting and heart pumping memories and feel something to feel alive.

xoxo