All Exposed

Maybe I have been watching too much Greys where they spit out metaphors at ya like those annoying sales people at the kiosks throwing samples at you, but because I like to compare one thing to another-  so here we go.

That moment when you're about to step in the shower, your body is cold and you are exposed, you are looking at the shower, at what you know is coming next and what you hope is warm and fuzzy and covers your body in warm and soapy bubbles, is like the moment when you're about to fall for a crush. It is like the tip of the iceberg, really. Right at that moment before hopping in the shower you are exposed, just like that moment when you let your guard down, you are exposed. You are trusting, you are scared, you are willingly letting someone else control part of your happiness. How twisted does that sound, yet it is what we all desire. We have three outcomes really:

1.) The shower is perfect. The water, oh gosh, the perfect temperature. The shampoo spits out the shampoo in that perfect little dollop and it bubbles in your hair just perfect. You don't get any cuts on your legs from your razor, and your new shaving cream smells better than that cute boys hoodie. You leave feeling clean and refreshed and sparkly.

2.) The water makes you jump out with a quick scream, leaving you more cold because now your body is cold and wet. The cold water sends icicles down your spine and you refuse to take another step into that shower until you are convinced you are developing hypothermia and you have to get back in the (hopefully) warm water to save your soul.

3.) That yummy looking shower, with steam coming out from the top, is merely a result of underestimating the power of your hot water knob and you jump in, with blind faith, only to feel your skin boiling from the sharp and burning water. You stick through it because your skin will get used to it, however you find out that you're out of shampoo and also you cut your knee shaving and also your forgot to get a towel ready after your shower, so you are running across you room, your body in shock from hot to cold in a millisecond, searching for a towel.

Like the shower, we have three outcomes for falling for a new crush:

1.) He reciprocates feelings. He tells you that you are everything he needs and no one has ever made him feel this way before (which he has probably told to a million other girls, so how many ways can he really feel???) but anyway, you are happy. You are in a deep deep like and he gives you butterflies and he loves to be with you. He has perfect hair and a smile that makes your insides feel like a melty Popsicle in July in Arizona.

2.) He seems like he feels the same way, I mean he says it, but for some reason he doesn't want to hangout with you and his friends, and he really wants to keep whatever is going on between you two, because it is more exciting that way really (red flag!!! (Please refer to 7 Signs You Are Falling For The Bad Guy)) and he just wants to hangout when it is convenient for him, but I mean he is what you need (like a shower, even if it is cold right) so you will take it, but every fiber in your being is telling you that you deserve more, like a luke warm shower at least.

3.) He completely shuts you down with a "thanks" and a "good job sport *pats on back*" kind of feeling, ouch. And you just wanna shake his cute little head and say that you are the sun in this mess of stars and that you would be so good together and that you know he likes you too, but you let it go because he is unhealthy for you, poisonous probably, or at least that's what you have to tell yourself to keep yourself from wanting him more.

xoxo