15 times I was wrong in 2015:
*yes, in fact I was only wrong 15 times in 2015, no more and no less, so I am an almost perfect person with only 15 mistakes in 365 days ;-)
15.) "I am not a freshman, therefore I cannot gain 'freshman 15'" HAHAHA the only difference between the weight I gained and the freshman who put on the freshman 15 is that I do not have an excuse for why my jeans do not fit anymore.
14.)"This shirt is not see through, I am fine," Okay I lied because I probably made this mistake 44 maybe 45 times this year, today included, and I only find out that I am wrong as I am standing under the fluorescent lights of Nordstrom, at work.
13.) "He says it is different this time, and I believe him," okay so rule number 1 of life: NEVER believe a boy who claims "it is different this time," because I will bet you all of the glitter eye shadow in this world that nothing has changed, except he really wants a backseat make out this time.
12.) "I really like this boy, I should so go for him, it doesn't matter if he breaks my heart," Okay this happened maybe 6 or 7 times this year so add that to my number.
11.) "Kissing boys I don't like will make me not miss the boys I do like," wow, I see a trend here, I am wrong a lot when it comes to boys. Tip: kissing boys you do not like never satisfies when you are missing someone who truly has a piece of your heart.
10.) "I need to be skinny to be happy," there was a lot of times in 2015 when my size 25 jeans fit me and I was more sad than I have been in my life, and there has been times in 2015 when my fat pants barely button up and I have never felt more alive and happy, outward appearances do not dictate my happiness.
9.) "I can keep driving my car with this beeping sound and it will all be okay," um no, refer back to the worst day of my life, March 24th, in my post titled "Kenzie and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day," for a vivid description of one of the many days when my life fell into shambles. I am entertaining when I am heart broken and it is past 1 am.
8.) "I can make myself like him," to me, this is one of the saddest statements. Not only is it horribly unfair to the boy, but to yourself. Forcing it upon yourself to have feelings for someone is not a relationship that anyone should get into, because ultimately you will end up feeling disappointed as H-E double hockey sticks- please never settle.
7.) "Just one more Greys episode..." Well...
6.) "I will never not miss him," no matter how great the boy seems in the minute, that aching pain eventually goes away. One day you will realize that for some reason he cannot be in your life at the moment and you will be okay with that. One day you will wake up without puffy eyes from crying before bed, one day you will want to feel happy and one day you will meet a guy who exceeds all standards your previous boy failed to meet.
5.) "He would never go for me, so why even try," there have been a lot of experiences, looking back now, that I see that I wish with my whole heart that I would have just gone for the guy. I wish that I would have sent that risky text or flirted back a bit more, because although sometimes I feel like he would never go for me, I just gotta listen to this quote " 'You miss 100% of the shots you don't take' -Wayne Gretzky' -Michael Scott"
4.) "My mom doesn't know what she's talking about," moms always know what they're talking about, especially my mom and especially when it comes to boys. And sometimes dads know what they're talking about too, and so do step dads and step moms.
3.) "When I have this I will be happy, when he leaves I will be happy, when I leave I will be happy," if I decide to be rotten about a situation then the situation is going to be crappy, that is just how it works. I have found that as cliche and cheesy and I am being right now, the more I look for the positive in the situation the happier I will be with my outcome and my situation.
2.) "I need these shoes," I just am looking in my shoe closet and spotting all of these heels I do not even have an event to wear them to and thinking about how many in n out meals I could have boughten instead.
1.) "This won't matter tomorrow," decisions follow you, good or bad, and so do the consequences, good or bad.
14.)"This shirt is not see through, I am fine," Okay I lied because I probably made this mistake 44 maybe 45 times this year, today included, and I only find out that I am wrong as I am standing under the fluorescent lights of Nordstrom, at work.
13.) "He says it is different this time, and I believe him," okay so rule number 1 of life: NEVER believe a boy who claims "it is different this time," because I will bet you all of the glitter eye shadow in this world that nothing has changed, except he really wants a backseat make out this time.
12.) "I really like this boy, I should so go for him, it doesn't matter if he breaks my heart," Okay this happened maybe 6 or 7 times this year so add that to my number.
11.) "Kissing boys I don't like will make me not miss the boys I do like," wow, I see a trend here, I am wrong a lot when it comes to boys. Tip: kissing boys you do not like never satisfies when you are missing someone who truly has a piece of your heart.
10.) "I need to be skinny to be happy," there was a lot of times in 2015 when my size 25 jeans fit me and I was more sad than I have been in my life, and there has been times in 2015 when my fat pants barely button up and I have never felt more alive and happy, outward appearances do not dictate my happiness.
9.) "I can keep driving my car with this beeping sound and it will all be okay," um no, refer back to the worst day of my life, March 24th, in my post titled "Kenzie and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day," for a vivid description of one of the many days when my life fell into shambles. I am entertaining when I am heart broken and it is past 1 am.
8.) "I can make myself like him," to me, this is one of the saddest statements. Not only is it horribly unfair to the boy, but to yourself. Forcing it upon yourself to have feelings for someone is not a relationship that anyone should get into, because ultimately you will end up feeling disappointed as H-E double hockey sticks- please never settle.
7.) "Just one more Greys episode..." Well...
6.) "I will never not miss him," no matter how great the boy seems in the minute, that aching pain eventually goes away. One day you will realize that for some reason he cannot be in your life at the moment and you will be okay with that. One day you will wake up without puffy eyes from crying before bed, one day you will want to feel happy and one day you will meet a guy who exceeds all standards your previous boy failed to meet.
5.) "He would never go for me, so why even try," there have been a lot of experiences, looking back now, that I see that I wish with my whole heart that I would have just gone for the guy. I wish that I would have sent that risky text or flirted back a bit more, because although sometimes I feel like he would never go for me, I just gotta listen to this quote " 'You miss 100% of the shots you don't take' -Wayne Gretzky' -Michael Scott"
4.) "My mom doesn't know what she's talking about," moms always know what they're talking about, especially my mom and especially when it comes to boys. And sometimes dads know what they're talking about too, and so do step dads and step moms.
3.) "When I have this I will be happy, when he leaves I will be happy, when I leave I will be happy," if I decide to be rotten about a situation then the situation is going to be crappy, that is just how it works. I have found that as cliche and cheesy and I am being right now, the more I look for the positive in the situation the happier I will be with my outcome and my situation.
2.) "I need these shoes," I just am looking in my shoe closet and spotting all of these heels I do not even have an event to wear them to and thinking about how many in n out meals I could have boughten instead.
1.) "This won't matter tomorrow," decisions follow you, good or bad, and so do the consequences, good or bad.
I was wrong a lot of 2015 and I made a lot of mistakes, but I was also right a lot of the time, like deciding to go to Malaysia, deciding to throw a senior class trip, reading The Joy Luck Club senior year, deciding to like the boy, and I am so grateful for the times I was wrong and I was right. I hope that 2016 brings me more boys, less heartbreak, and a few less times that I will be wrong.
xoxo
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