Top Ten Compliments

You know those things you hear that just make your heart melt?

-"You look tan"

-"You look happy again"

-"This song reminds me of you"

-"I've never had someone in my life that makes me miss something so much"

-"Your hair looks long"

-"Oh wow your arms are toned!"

-"You have a good sense of humor"

-"That lipstick color looks good on you"

-"Your shoes look expensive"

-"You're every Mormon boys dream"

xoxo

ps here's a quick selfie of when I thought the plane left at 6:45 am, only to find out it left at 6:45 pm. Props to my parents for not chopping my head off for waking them up at an unspeakable time for a flight that is 12 hours later. :-)

How To Tell If Someone Is Avoiding You

Aside from missing your person and your little brother eating the last piece of pizza, the worst feeling on this planet that I think we as humans can experience is knowing when someone is avoiding us. If you are really cool and accomplished and have never been avoided by anyone, then I have two conclusions. One, you are a robot. Two, I am the only person who is avoided by people so you are actually completely and utterly normal. Anyway, over my vast experience of being avoided and ignored by crushes, friends, parents, coworkers, I decided to put a little teeny list of pointers or indicators that will lead one to the conclusion if they are being *cue a heavy drum roll and a rolling of the eyes* avoided.

-Said person never texts you back. That is a bummer, but it is a clear sign. Unless, however, said person really sucks at texting, then maybe you're off the hook but even that is iffy. I mean, someone who sucks at texting is going to text someone they like- even a little bit- back, but someone who is trying to avoid someone will have an accumulation of "hey" 's on the left side of their messages.

-Said person will not text you back, but is watching your snap stories. I mean, this is a small detail that really someone only pays attention to if they are looking for a specific human to be paying attention to them, and said person is obviously an armature at avoiding people. If you do not want someone to know they have their phone handy then do not be watching stories to get the list of stories out of your feed. It's simple- think smarter not harder. 

-Said person can never hangout because they are always doing an activity that involves their mom or their mom's rules. Unless they really love their mother, their mother probably is not forcing their 18 year old child to come to the fabric store with them for 7 hours.

-SAID PERSON WILL SLAP YOU WITH THE "Delivered"

-Said person will go to great lengths to make sure that they do not run into you at any costs. Now, the victim in this situation will probably not realize this as it is all on the avoiders side, but an avoider will purposely park in the back of the parking lot to make sure they do not run into you while walking to class, they will change their route to avoid some kind of contact, some might even pull up to the same gas station as the victim and force their 12 year old brother to go inside and pay for gas because sometimes avoiding someone is worth it. Just a thought.

xoxo

Hard Facts About Life

Inspired from my "300 writing prompts" clearance deal I snagged at Barnes and Noble.

-Not everyone you fall in love with you are meant to be with

-Eating more and exercising less does in fact make you fat

-Red Robin's bottomless fries are only free if you order a meal

-Not everyone has clear and pure intentions

-Your most can be not enough for someone

-People will shoot the messenger with hopes some of the backlash will hit the perpetrator

-Things have to change

-Two years is a long time

-Last Chance raised their prices

-Saying "see ya later" is a real thing and it sucks real bad

-"Be careful what you wish for" is real and true and I have a story of why one really should "be careful what you wish for"

-One always feels better in a cute outfit when their hair and makeup is done up- sorry :-/

-People come and go

-Boys suck 

-Girls can be nasty

-The badder the boy, the more the girl wants to fix and make him hers

-Math is hard for like 98% of the human race

-Derek Shepherd is dead

-Bomb shoes will always hurt your feet no matter how many times you try to wear them out

-Credit cards are not all they are cracked up to be

-Sometimes you have expensive taste but get paid $9 an hour

Did and Did Not

Did not:

-workout

-clean my bathroom

-finish packing

-do laundry

-get an oil change

-finish my dress

-go shopping for clothes

-let myself miss people

-have to pretend to like someone

-tan

-shave my legs

Did:

-get a new Harry Potter book

-eat two things of Red Robin fries

-memorize half the rap to "Fergalicious"

-cry over a fictitious death in Greys Anatomy

-realize this has been a fast month

-do my makeup

-wipe off my makeup

-do my hair

-put my hair in a pony tail

-hang out with my mom

-laugh with good pals

-catch up with true friends 

-freak my mom out

You win some you loose some :-/

xoxo

Thoughts

-over it

-"whatever you have to be pretty if you're gonna be a bitch" -Carson

-it's a bummer when you go down a bra size

-the thing is I don't run because I love to run, I run because I want a hot bod

-I wish there was an app where you could ask who was a thing and who was hooking up like that would be helpful

-"I'm jealous of the way you're happy without me"

-My journal has movie stubs of good watches and straw wrappers of successful dates in it and it's just happy tears in that thing

-11:11 I wish nordstrom will start shipping to Malaysia

-K so wanna get married because planning a wedding also don't want to get married because boys have cooties and I won't have anything to look forward to

-Morning raspy voices tho

-Today I am thankful for friends that watch Greys Anatomy

-"Alone people don't like hearing about together people"

-I love seeing how boys look at their girlfriends, I want someone who looks at me like Caleb looks at Bailee

-I love haunted houses I love scary movies I love love love Halloween 

-You know when you wanna ask someone something but you know they're gonna send it in their gm :-///

-We all have stuff we don't talk about

-Red robin! Someone! Anyone!

Humans Need More

So here's the thing, I just really believe that as humans we need more than the three basics to survive. Like ok we are not animals, we can not thrive with food, water and shelter. We have been blessed with bodies and minds and emotions, so much that we crave these things to survive. Now, somedays I am positive that I can survive on Krispey Kreme donuts, exhibit A:

But really, other things fill us up. I was thinking about this idea as I was enjoying my newly unemployed life where I was laying in the pool listening to "Rich Girl," and I felt as though I should be in a scene of Gossip Girl. As Jenny Han via Belly states "I could live on a crush for weeks," I completely agree. There are moments that I have stored in my brain that I use as a fall back when I am bored or sad or just lonely, they are like the granola bar that is always in your pantry that you can always count on and it will never let you down. 

Freshman year I was infatuated with a brunette boy whose eyes crinkled when he smiled and my heart melted faster than a popsicle in Arizona heat when he would open his heavenly lips and say "Hey McKenzie," I mean, there was a moment when he said hello to me after class and I LIVED on that moment for a few months. I told everyone and anyone who would listen that this beautiful human being knew my name, and whenever I was bummed or down with the blues I would remember his crinkled eyes and my heart would beat fast and I would be content. I lived on that crush for months, that crush was my stability basically. 

I was training myself to live on memories. I am stuck with that training today. Today, I remember the heart beating second of my first kiss and I fall back on that when I need a good laugh, I remember the laughs of sneaking into the Buttes hot tub with friends when I am bored, I remember my first real kiss with a boy I really liked when I want to remember the good. I am like Belly where I live on moments, I have little memories of my lifetime stored up so when I am sitting alone in the food court or driving the long drive home I can sip on those moments and feel what it was like when life felt as it was golden. 

I love memories, and it is hard to not plant down in memory lane and stay there because the past is much more comforting and safe than the present. But how lucky we are that we are blessed with a brain that can remember feelings and emotions and these are triggered by songs or words or a building on the road, I mean it sucks to feel so much, but also it is kind of awesome because that connects us with one another.

Also if there was an award for an all-over-the-place-what-is-the-point-blog-post I like to think that this one would take home the gold medal. I just think it is interesting that I can live on memories, that when it feels as though my life is at a humming plateau, I can look back on the exciting and heart pumping memories and feel something to feel alive.

xoxo

A Whole Bunch Of "See ya laters"

I am going to do something a little bit out of the norm, usually I try to keep this blog away from a journal (which I have, and I just finished one so I got a cute new Kate Spade one woohoo) and more of an emotional depot, but I owe a post to my beloved Nordstrom. I just wanna put a little piece of something that is going on in my itsy bitsy world. Anyone who knows me on some kind of level knows that I have always had a love, like a deep, burning, crazy love, for Nordstrom. Something about the gray, clean, classy bags, something about the smell of the store, something about the word Nordstrom excites my heart. Aside from my love for clothes, I have a deep infatuation for this company. 

A little over four months ago I realized I needed to change something in my life. I was sad, sad beyond a sad I have ever expirienced and if you know me or if you have read from previous posts I am sure you can assume why, but nevertheless I was bummed. I decided to get a job- like a real life one where I had to interview and pay taxes and all that jazz. I decided to shoot for the moon, my moon, my world- Nordstrom. Much to my pleasant surprise, I landed my dream job. I am not exaggerating when I say this is my dream, like I drool at the thought of Nordstrom. This job came into my life at a time when I was struggling to stay afloat. Granted, going to school from 7:30-1:30 then working from 2-9:30 was tough, and I am still amazed that I got to work while managing to touch up makeup, change shoes, and stuff a Luna bar into my face, all while cruising along the 202- but I did it. This job, this dream, was an escape for me. It was a distraction from my everyday woes that I was experiencing. At Nordstrom I was not the broken girl, I was not the girl planning the Disney trip, I was not the girl who was bummed at school or the girl that cried in passing periods, I was me. I could be whoever I wanted to be, I was a hard worker who smiles at customers and literally shopped for people all day. Not gonna lie, my nights were often brightened when cute boys would come visit me, and that made my dream even more special. 

Yesterday I put a pause on my dream, I said a temporary goodbye to my favorite company with some of my favorite people because I am embarking on a new journey to be nanny for an amazing family in Malaysia, and I am so elated and thankful for this opportunity. But goodbyes are hard, they suck. I have never had something in my life ever where I have had to say so many goodbyes to people that literally were my floaties, people that do not even know they were this to me. I love Nordstrom and I am extremely grateful for the opportunity that company gave me, but I am so looking forward to these next four months and I do a happy dance when I think of living 9000 miles away from sucky boys, and give my mom a hug when I realize I will be 9000 miles away.

xoxo