Crappy Chaos

I'm back b!tches.
I've been waiting to write this post for a while. A year ago this month I started this blog. A year ago I wrote one of my favorite posts "oops" and attracted the attention, ridicule, and sympathy of some members of my large high school. A year ago I was heartbroken, I literally felt my body tearing apart at the seams. It's amazing the uncontrollable power that a boy can have over a lovesick girl, but what's even more amazing is the power of The Atonement to comfort my lovesick self.

Today, a year later, I'm better. I would be lying if I said I didn't miss my old life, but I'm better. 

So because I'm a Pinterest whore, I came across this image and it struck greatness inside of me:

Because sometimes, although I'm better, my life is chaos. Everyone's life, at some point on this Earth, is in chaos. It is inevitable, but chaos is what makes the world go round babes. To me, chaos is magic. 

When my life is mid crisis, my account is overdrawn and my mascara is running down my face because of a boy and I miss my dog with every fiber of my being, sometimes all I can do is laugh. As humans, that is all that we can do sometimes. When life just sucks, and it feels like the end, we just have to embrace the crappy days just as much as the wonderful ones because the crappy days are where we learn the most. And most of the time, the learning process sucks. It just does- but we learn from life's crappy chaos and we make beautiful moments that constantly overcome and overpower the hurt and embarrassment we are feeling. 

If I had one piece of advice I could give to heart broken, long haired and stressed out year ago Kenzie, it would be to make peace out of the chaos I was experiencing. And also maybe don't post such bratty posts because those hurt feelings, or don't wash your hair as much, but mostly the chaos thing- because I believe that if I took a day to laugh at all of the situations that had turned south in my life I would have learned the lessons I needed to learn a lot faster and I would have been able to recover with a lot more grace. 

A bad day, hour, friend or boy doesn't taint you as undesirable, broken or miserable- it just means that there is more learning to be done in the midst of all the crappy junk floating around. 

I, Kenzie, solemnly vow to keep this blog up. If only for the sake of me, I vow it. 

Xoxo