Confessions

FEELIN' RISKY

And also a bit high because of Strep throat medicine, confessions:

-Freaking obsessed with new underwear and if you are a girl and you say that you are not then you're a big fat liar or something

-It's lame of people to put others down to lift themselves up, but we all do it and it feels good to do sometimes so oops

-Yes I spent $98 on a sweater in May in Arizona but I look cute in it and it is soft

-I tweet a lot when I want a boy to notice me

-I buy myself flowers

-I currently have a half eaten half dozen of Krispey Kreme donuts sitting on my counter because when I get lonely I need companionship

-I can't stop listening to the Glee cover of "Isn't She Lovely"

-There's somethin about tall boys let me tell ya

-Being in a relationship is the coolest and I don't understand people who want to be single because hookups get old fast

-When I crush on someone I crush hard and it always ends in long tales of embarrassing stories

-Everytime "girl crush" comes on the radio I feel frozen inside and can't get myself to turn it off and I have to text Carson for backup

-Watch out this is a big one: GIRLS DO NOT LIKE IT WHEN GUYS PLAY HARD TO GET. Being unavailable is not appealing at all and makes girls feel insecure and back out

Thoughts That Came Into My Head

-most girls are baby hungry but im puppy hungry

-old voicemails make my heart happy

-I spend my money on high priced items that make me feel pretty

-crushes crush you

-you sucked the soul out of me

-I wish the mall was open 24/7 because then I would be happy 24/7

-"if he wanted to be with you right now, then he would be"

-"money can't buy happiness" ok but I would rather be well dressed, than ugly and poor

-"Are you Filipino?" "Are you Japanese?" "What Asian are you?" "Are you Korean?" Actually no I'm 100% African American can't you tell thank you much

-I've just gotten really good at pretending to care about certain things that I don't, and really bad at showing that I do care about certain things and people

-HEY YOU I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU

-don't hook up, go shopping and play dress up

-craving cuddles 25/8 ok

-stout

-nothing classier than flipflops to school!!!

-nothing cuter than ratty extensions!!!!

-nothing better than when trying your hardest isn't enough!!!

-nothing better than wanting something so bad and giving your all for it to just not happen!!!

-K you have a semi-decent boyfriend but I have bangin outfits so who's the real winner here

Confessions

-the day I got my license I ran a red light and swore to not tell my mom until I am 30

-I think the reason I hate running is because Paige made me run a 5k the day after a breakup

-I don't think hot rod is that funny

-I let boys influence my attitudes towards the day way too much

-it really takes a lot for me not to like someone so if I don't like you, you probably did something horrible- like worse than making me run a 5k the day after a breakup ;-)

-boys are cuter when they act interested

-boys who play "hard to get" are not gonna "get" any

-I still listen to sk8r boi by Avril Levine atleast 3 times a day- it's "my song"

-I could eat goldfish for the rest of my life and be completely content

-there's just something about a simple touch to the knee or a kind text that ugh makes me weak in the knees

-I got a 31% on my math final

-I wish I got to know more people in highschool

-I cope with humor, sarcastic and witty humor

-I go to Krispey Kreme to get donut holes on a weekly basis

-highschool sux and rox all in one

-I know im addicted to shopping it's just like a rush ya know!!! Plus while people leave, clothes never leave

-cheesy Pinterest quotes inspire me hahahaha imembarrassing 

-I couldn't live without diet coke

Things I Thought Would End

As I am making it almost four years through highschool, there are a lot of quirks and actions that I thought would end as I became a senior. So many things that little freshman me thought "When I am a senior, I won't have to worry about that," well SURPRISE little freshman me with my cuffed capris and bubble necklaces, embarrassing stuff doesn't cure with time. So many things I thought would end:

-Being nervous around cute boys (If I have a crush on a boy I still shriek an excited "HI" with an arm wave and walk away fast with my heart pounding out of my chest)

-Girls being mean to other girls to lift themselves up (Hahhaha girls suck)

-My obsession with the Jonas Brothers (I am proud to say I still, to this day, would pay some serious big bucks to see the three of them play their cute little hearts out on stage wow Joe Jonas ily let me love you)

-Friendships (I AM SO GLAD THIS ONE DIDN'T END because I just wow I don't know if I can express how greatful I am for good friends because they keep me at my own level of sanity)

-Boys not talking to girls (The movies lie! Boys do not make great gestures like in "The Notebook" or "Can't Buy Me Love" boys still kinda suck at showing emotion, they just get way cuter and make you weak in the knees more than you thought possible)

-Not having plans (Hahahahahhahahhaha so many nights where I have had NOTHING TO DO-alone and with friends)

-Not wanting school to end (Confession: I get really annoyed with lots of people but I loved highschool and as much as I hope they are NOT the best years of my life, I am so lucky to have so many memories and pictures and true friends who share kind words and love and their food)

#RememberingHighSchool

There's this fun little hashtag spreading on Twitter like glitter at a sorority house- or a drag queen birthday party. Anyway, I have so many #RememberingHighSchool thoughts that well I can't tweet them all. Also, some might be a teensy bit mean but if you're offended by my tweets probably don't keep reading my blog oops :-/

#RememberingHighSchool when I kissed 5 boys in one night

#RememberingHighSchool when I lost a friend

#RememberingHighSchool when I rape kissed my crush at a Halloween party

#RememberingHighSchool when I started crying in front of the cutest boy in the whole student body :-):-):-) shoutout to who made me cry from behind your computer screen lolol

#RememberingHighSchool when "aw what a cute couple" !!!

#RememberingHighSchool when someone admitted to reading my blog after they call me dumb and annoying lolol devilish boy

#RememberingHighSchool dare night

#RememberingHighSchool purposefully dropping off balloons to the wrong class to see a crush

#RememberingHighSchool selfies with couples making out in the hallway

#RememberingHighSchool Costco muffins

#RememberingHighSchool peeing my pants when my 7th grade/8th grade/freshman/sophomore/junior/seniorcrush says hi

#RememberingHighSchool running into a trashcan after my 7th grade/8thgrade/freshman/sophomore/senior crush says hi

#RememberingHighSchool boys errywhere

#RememberingHighSchool midnight kisses and midnight tears

#RememberingHighSchool girls wallow nights filled with ben&jerrys and revenge planning 

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Highschool sucks, but it's also kinda cool

Being Bored is Boring

I feel like this picture is 5000% too accurate. We all have been here, we all know how this feels. You are overwhelmed by all of your duties that you cannot even arrange a list, because you do not even know where to start! Like you start your homework, then BAM "you need to text a friend to check up" ok in the middle of that BAM "you need to run to the store to get treats for class tomorrow" ok you start the car BAM "also stop by the mall to get a graduation dress and while you're there get a birthday present and a graduation one too" ok cool almost there then BAM WHOOSH CUTE BOY TEXTS AND THE WHOLE WORLD STOPS and suddenly all those tabs are overpowered by a new window and you're like "Wow why can't I focus on anything else because  he looked so cute today I just want to melt into his arms and stay there and maybe definitely kiss him lots," I mean I have heard that boys minds cannot focus on one thing at a time, so if this is me on a daily basis my heart goes out to boys of this world!!! And while doing all of those fun tasks you also have to look good as hell so you can snapchat and look on point and desirable- duh.

So, instead of studying for my precalc exam and cleaning my room and ironing my clothes for work tomorrow I decide to vent about how overwhelmed I feel about being overwhelmed. But confession I love it because being bored is boring.

Thoughts That Came Into My Head

-Do you ever just look at people and think "you will really regret wearing that after highschool"

-I just don't get how you can go from caring so deeply about someone to feeling nothing as they walk by

-Oh cute army pants! How 2013 of you :-)

-If you're having a bad day I may not be able to fix it but I can tell you a lot of embarrassing stories involving me and a cute boy :-):-):-)

-Stoked

-I wish I had a boy to friendzone

-She hands out her kisses like I hand out candy during the holidays

-One day you will find someone who fills in your lows and someone who you fill in their lows and even if you're complete before its okay because it will feel good to be happy together

-I'm just confused because some people at school like 12 and others look like they work a 9-5 job and have a mortgage